Is it Bad

to say that I want to stay ethical and true to my conscious? Is it wrong to say that I don't want to cheat? Will looking at commercial aspects alone help? I agree to the point that one has to look into the money part as well. Thank God I am not in a position where I am forced to earn my bread. People just mock at me saying that I am a loser because I am talking nonsense in stating that my personal ethics doesn't allow me to cheat nor fake around. They say that I am not looking at the bigger picture. Is money alone the sole thing that takes one to places? Is it enough if I have that alone? People also complain that I am losing the opportunities only because I am not ready to cheat. My question to all these people is will one's conscious not prick for cheating and faking experience to enter a company? Even if I enter the company today what is the guarantee that I wont be caught and black listed later? Will these people come as saviours when that day arrives. 

Leaving all these aside, what frustrates me is that I have all the qualifications that are needed to get the job. I deserve it but for the gap in my career. I am told that I would surely land up in the job that I am looking for, if I put a fake experience. But why should I, is my question to them. Why cant people consider genuine cases like mine?I understand that exceptions can never become rules. However, they can be considered at times. Why is it that I am being targeted for no fault of mine? I have proved that am an eligible candidate and still am facing all these. 

All these have been racked because I am so disappointed. I was called for an interview today just to check whether I was ready to fake my CV so that the consultant could forward mine to one of the major MNC's . When He started this 'FAKE' word, I abruptly stopped him and said that I was not for it and if I had wanted I would have done it myself.Why him for that? He started giving GYAN regarding the commercial world and how I should be prepared to pay people. He said that I was not fit enough to fight this battle. Today I have money and I will pay. What about others who have genuine reason for a break and not have money to pay? Will they still demand so much? Is it only about money everywhere?

I am puzzled and taken aback by all these crappy money matters. I am forced to think whether Professional Ethics prevails at all if there is one. All this is because I have come across more than one in the last few days' time. I am becoming skeptical about everything these days. Will there be a change? While typing these, a sudden thought arises in me. Why should I bother about what people say who don't matter to me at all? At this point, I vow to myself that I will stay true to my conscious and show the world I can excel in any field that I get into. And a day will arrive when I give it back to these guys and expose their fraudulent acts. 

Hoping that there would soon come a day when these kind of acts come to an end, I am counting the days for the new year and a new beginning. 

In what would be my last post this year, I've got quite a few things to share. Since Aug, I have not blogged and that is quite a long time and so, have a lot to type.Here are a few...

September : Was a month of joy for me as I successfully completed my certification and it was like accomplishing a mission impossible in the first attempt. Though it is not a mission impossible thing, it seemed so because of the minimal assistance and less exposure to the subject. After completing the exam, it was time to pack our bags back to India. Everything had to be done in a span of 15 days from vacating the house, buying stuff and packing things and sending our baggage to India, to painting the house and handing over in right condition. It was tedious and everyday was fun filled with nightmares. The painting part had to be done as a huge sum was with the landlord as a security deposit. Had we not handed it over in proper condition, we would have lost some amount in that for repair purpose. But the last fews days were fun. My husband and I were happy since we shared a passion to paint!(sigh! since it was not our own house that we were painting (wink)). And we also had an additional task of disposing all our items as we were relocating. We started selling items and many visited our messy house to buy things. I must say at this juncture that everybody was amazed by the painting and cleaning work. The painting work was close to perfection. Even the agents who came to inspect our house were taken aback and applauded our effort to hand over the house in a very neat condition. All said and done, the after effects were ready to follow ;)

It was a month to celebrate and enjoy. In my earlier post I had mentioned about the wonderful set of friends that we have got. We all got together for the last time for a dinner and had a lot of fun. London is not devoid of Indian hotels. But this one was special as it was designed like a railway coach and each seat was designed in the form of berth. Nice thought I must say. We were gifted with a big portrait that had a collage of all wonderful events that we all were a part of. That was so nice of them and we preserve it as a treasure! 

October: Came October 1st and it was time for us leave for India. We were so touched by our friends' gesture as most of them made to the airport to bid adieu. All was well and happily landed here in India on Oct 2nd. It was a nice feeling to back again in our motherland and one can only enjoy it when he/she goes through the same phase in life. Families waiting eagerly to meet us made the enjoyment all the more joyous and wonderful feeling prevailed. Meeting every member of the family followed and everything went on smoothly then on.

It was a series of mixed feelings to follow since Oct 3rd as I was down with chicken pox from that day and it made everyone in the family upset. We had a series of plans and everything went for a toss. It was then I realized that what is destined will surely happen even when man proposes a lot! Uhhh.. So much to say. It was hell for the next 1 and half month's time as I could not eat properly and had my food track affected due to  infection. In the mean time, I had started applying for jobs in Chennai.

November: Jobs in India are abundant however, from what I have seen, people operate in a very so called "SYSTEMATIC" way. They operate with blinkers put on like that of the race-horses. I dont see many considering exceptional cases(I am one). I was disappointed to see that nothing was coming my way. I guess it all happened to me, to prove a point by the God. That instance proved to me a saying in Tamil "வெளுததேலம் பால் இல்லை" which means whichever seems white is not always milk. You bet. I was called for an interview one day and was told that I needed to work for them under their payroll for a about three month and after that I would be placed in one of the top MNC's. People were so convincing that I fell into a trap of cheaters(how dumb of me).They even promised that I would work on live projects until I get a job. And like any other consultancy they wanted money for that. I had agreed to pay them in instalments ( I was lucky enough to pay only half the amount). At least God had so much consideration and I was not insane to believe their words blindly. By then, I was still in the recovery phase. I joined the company on Nov 8th only to realize that they were frauds. They were ready to do anything from cheating to faking experience for money. The day I landed there was an eye opener for many as well. I had the knowledge of how it looks like on a live environment and how people teach and work in a big MNC. There were not many projects coming in and everyday when we asked about this, they would say that they project would come at a particular time from Banglore(God only knows what they actually meant) and that I would surely work on a live project. I realized that people were cheated left, right and center including me.

 I took the opportunity to teach everybody else about this and also how it would be like to work on a real time environment. None of them how it would be like to work in a bigger environment as they had this wrong notion that every company had some project rooms like the ones here. I decided to ensure that they understood what it is like in a bigger environment. Knowledge sharing is always fun and it was nice to share the knowledge that I had gained due to the certification I had completed a month back. I could also learn from the questions asked. It was a new environment and I learnt to adapt to the situation and had an opportunity to meet some nice persons there. I could also befriend a few and my fascination to admire different shades of different people had multi-folded. To tell about a few here - there was an angry young man fresh out of college, who could not stand people cheating and a friend of his who was happy go lucky guy who dint bother much. Everybody was fresh blood and naughty young men enjoying and misusing the internet facilities provided yet serious to learn something and ready to kick start their career. One another interesting person who comes to my mind is a girl who is multi-faceted and knows A-Z about the company. Yet due to her own personal commitments she has come to these folks. That is her personal wish. Another person who was also stunned as I am was a girl who has worked on a different platform and wanting to start afresh due to her passion. She was naive enough to pay all the amount. Poor girl and I found a cribbing partner in her(no offense intended) In all these, I managed to get the positive thing out and understood my strength that I could teach well.

December : Finally a project was offered and I was made to work on it and they tried to create a situation as though it had a deadline. I managed to deliver it on time and had it reviewed by the so-called testers and exactly one month later, not willing to continue I quit the company of cheaters.(Still had some 2 more months to complete) I could not stand that! Period.I understand from others that these frauds have told the other students that I have been placed in a big MNC as a back-door entrant paying a huge sum(which I have not and neither am I working in that company). I am surprised and have told people create such rumours and have warned that I would sue them. I guess this is how they would woo people into their company and they are actually quite good at it in making people fall for this!! Given an opportunity, I would like to rip them apart on the internet. I shall soon reveal who those people are.

I am also awaiting my hubby's transfer to Chennai. Until then, I am enjoying my life at my mom's place! My p-i-l have been sweet enough to make me stay in my dad's place. Everything has been good so far and am enjoying my stay there and with my cousin's son around, it is all the more fun.Not to forget, I also attended a reunion with friends and had good fun. Everybody seems to have changed and it is nice to see that people have matured over the years. Health wise this last quarter has been a roller coaster ride for me as I am just out of a surgery- no-surgery trauma since last week and for now, it has been decided that I shall not undergo any surgery(reason is personal though ;) )

This year has been wonderful and sorrowful in its own right. Wonderful, as I completed my certification   and am back to India. Sorrowful as I had lost a few of my relatives.

Putting everything aside, let us all hope that the coming years be joyful and blissful as ever. Wish you all a Merry Christmas and  A very happy new year!

Cheers!